My story

I did a little bit of meandering, wandering through the internal rainforest.

I grew stronger, I fed doubts, I searched

 desperately.

I knew all the answers. I knew they were buried within me.

What am I doing. 

What makes me happy? What drives me forward, how can I best serve the world?

I finally put my foot down. //I had tried to please others all my life, have a ‘tangible’ measurement of self-worth through their appreciative eyes. My daddy for once. My dad. Let him rule my perspective, such a grand man.

Finally, I saw my own worth, from my own eyes. What major discovery it has been (feels as though I always knew this - at least the child-version of myself always did); that when I stand my own ground, when I follow my bliss, everyone can feel the happiness it brings me.

So the path, the real journey begins. I am twenty years old.

Some discover their truth at 50, others at 80, others prefer the comfort of a safe life, others were born with such a strong predilection that they would not let anybody interfere; but that’s their story. And this is mine. 

Conversations with God (3)

When your choices conflict—when body, mind, and spirit are not acting as one—the process of creation works at all levels, producing mixed results. If, on the other hand, your being is in harmony, and your choices are unified, astonishing things can occur.

Your young people have a phrase—"having it all together"—which could be used to describe this unified state of being.

There are also levels within levels in your decision making. This is particularly true at the level of the mind.

Your mind can, and does, make decisions and choices from one of at least three interior levels: logic, intuition, emotion—and sometimes from all three— producing the potential for even more inner conflict.And within one of those levels—emotion— there are five more levels. These are the five natural emotions: grief, anger, envy, fear, and love.
And within these, also, there are two final levels: love and fear.

The five natural emotions include love and fear, yet love and fear are the basis of all emotions. The other three of the five natural emotions are outgrowths of these two.

Ultimately, all thoughts are sponsored by love or fear. This is the great polarity. This is the primal duality. Everything, ultimately, breaks down to one of these. All thoughts, ideas, concepts, understandings, decisions, choices, and actions are based in one of these:

And, in the end, there is really only one. 

Love.

SHIRT/SKIRT

Hi!
I just found this video online and the girl just so creative... She uses this one male shirt and transforms it into amazing and fashionable dresses and skirts!
Enjoy,

Friend's Birthday Party.

 A friend of mine closed-off a part of a night club to celebrate his birthday, this was my outfit! I had recently bought this dress in the streets of SoHo in NY, (in a little shop that I can't, unfortunately, remember the name!). The shoes are my adored steve madden. Plus, I got to wear my black seamed tights!! These are just so fashionable and chic - I love how the tights contrast with the more modern style of the dress with the funky white lines that come across it (the white lines actually accentuate your natural curves, so the dress plays its part! haha).
To top it off, the red leather jacket blends all sort of mixtures together with a fun, exciting and an 'I really don't care what you think tonight' attitude!
Hasta la vista! Enjoy ;)

 Black seamed tights <333

 I have recently returned from Paris, where I saw a huge amount of publicity for Elie Saab's new perfume. I must say I haven't even tried the perfume but I INSTANTLY fell in love with the dress. I went online to Elie Saab's page and I just love the femininity, vitality and grace present in all his designs. He's a true artist.

Just a thought.

I like fashion, as it proves to be an outlet of creativity and a form of self-expression (I don't encourage consumerism). So let's not be afraid to be "our quirky fantastic self" - Katie Malachuk, writer.

Visiting Philly

At Penn University!

 It was a really sunny day... very hot, actually.

 So we decided to cool-off by going to the amazing art museum in Philly! It is gigantic and holds a lot of masterpieces of different eras.

Then, it hit me. 

Epiphany: I am art! Everything I do, everything I feel, every movement, every breath... each and every single thing mentioned, is art. 

I decided to lay down and thus, break a tacit rule - nobody (at least very few people do) lies in the middle of an exposition. You should try it sometime! It's incredibly liberating to do something you really want to do and you go for it because you're doing no harm! Stop abiding to mental rules that are unnecessary!

I am art.

The following picture is tremendously cute, and sad at the same time. Can be analyzed far deeper than stated.

 New Walking Shoes!!!!

 When we were on our way to the movies, we saw a bunch of butterflies made out of recycled soda cans! Yet again, art.

Beautiful building near our hotel.

The outfit I used to go around Philly.

WINTER

It's winter. I'm back from my trip, and that's it. I'm going to have lunch with a friend of mine and hope that it doesn't get that cold. I'm still doing essays as part of application process by the way.